because it does.
no matter how deep into distraction or motivation I get, it always comes back to this.
I dont know what I want in life
I dont know what I want in this present moment
the only thing I am sure of is that I would do a lot of things to be with you.
anything, really.
I have a hard time believing that the whole thing was a dream, or a lie.
I have a hard time believing this is real.
I hate this so much, all of it.
I want to listen to themusic and be happy.
please save me soon.
listening to: outlaw heart tiger army
On second thought
whether I should go to the gym right now and run on the running machine
but then again
I would probably get more excersize drinking
I hear the celebration outside and I will join them
