His name was Robert Paulson.

Existential Crisis of the Day:

Invention vs. Authenticity

Authenticity is being true to who you already are, or would be if it weren't for all the distorting images

Is this as authentic as you'll ever be?

We come into this world "mewling and puking in the nurse's arms" thinks Shakespeare

Existentialist is coming into existence, and then deciding what you are to do with it. 

He decided his course.  He really fucked that one up.

Foucault thinks that there is only one practical consequence and that is to create ourselves as a work of art.

No one told them their purpose, so they became art, what else is a girl to do?

Nietzsche said there is one thing that is needful and that is to give style to our character.

"-- A great and rare art!  It is practiced by those who survey all the strengths and weaknesses of their nature and then fit them into an artistic plan until every one of them appears as art and reason and even weaknesses delight the eye.  Here a large mass of second nature has been added; there a piece of original nature has been removed-- both times through long practice and daily work at it.  Here the ugly that  could not be removed is concealed; there it had been reinterpreted and made sublime." - Nietzsche

Its taken me 19 counts

heartbeats, breaks, attacks

to read

in, on, about

what makes a life worth living

its not you, or you, or you

its me, im no plain lady
but yes, a lady does

take value in the enterprise

of self interpretation

Behind the darkest dead charred bushes

of the blackened bombed city and country and world of someone you knew once called home before he left it like you want to leave yours he never wanted to be a soldier he just wanted to live his gay life educated and they stopped and strapped an arm and they sent him to kill there he was cheyneyed to a chain naked stress position is a gross understatement hell never be thirsty again waterboarding made him hate water and aire he hung their towels and spray painted i hate freedom with his eyes and imagined mailing it from behind those Bushes in the Cheneys.

  

lets not forget where we come from, now.

Listening to: Portugal The Man, American Ghetto (new!)

Hank Williams III- Damn Right Rebel Proud

Ryan Adams- Easy Tiger

T.A.N.D