Sunday, November 25, 2012

My music

My music is hearty, dense and slow like a stew.
It is thoughtful, deliberate, and meaningful.
My music requires attention, patience, and quiet.
It always has humans playing instruments with intent and love

It is almost impossible for my music to be background music
It inevitably forces itself to the foreground of my experience
I cannot ignore my music

I crave music during the day
Just as the human body craves water and salt
I crave certain sounds, words, feelings, beats, tones
It has the ability to dictate how I see the world, and how I speak and how I dress

My music is a small way for me to be in control of my life
It is my indulgence at any given moment each day

Sometimes I know it is better to participate in the human social environment
but every once and awhile I will treat myself by ignoring all of that
by putting on my headphones and drowning out what everyone else thinks

My music puts me on a different plane than everyone else
In that moment I am experiencing "this", but also another, completely different "this" than you are
I like to try a different soundtrack for the same task, it's like putting on a different colored pair of glasses looking at the same object, but seeing it anew each time.

My music is like my history, each song a different smell, taste, memory
Each of them constructing to compile the memory of who I have been

My favorite songs are my best friends, they travel and change with me
My best friends are my favorite songs, and we are one in the same

Much like my life, I don't "just let" new music in
I wont look at it and declare I like it
I need to spend some time with it
alone time, quality time
I'll know if I like it if I choose to listen to it again or not
I don't put pressure on myself to like anything

I have a rare, fleeting fling with a song or artist
but mostly I'm a relationship type of girl
If I love you once, I'll love you forever
Are we still talking about music?

Of bottom line importance, however:
I don't care what kind of music you listen to
I care about how you treat music: a slutty pick of the month, or a lifelong companion
A sustainable love, or a noisy passerby
Do you like the way the band members look, or the sounds that come out of their instrument
Are you shuffle, or vinyl